I love being a designer and illustrator, but first and foremost I am a wife and homemaker. In order to share my life and heart with you, I will be writing about some of my personal life so you can know more about the woman behind the designs.
I don't pretend to have all the answers on being a homemaker. Likely when I even use the term, the word itself feels very loaded and strange. Maybe unempowered, uneducated, maybe limiting. For myself, I found the word very limiting. I couldn't reconcile my understanding of womanhood to the career of being a stay at home mom and also being a business owner. In fact I would spend time mulling over in my head just how I was going to make it all work. Though I knew I needed to be a homemaker someday, ultimately in my mind it was becoming secondary to my hope to own a business and everything that went hand in hand with homemaking felt like a nuisance to me. Childbearing and raising, meal planning, hospitality, cleaning. UGH.
My favorite homemakers house is seated on a little hill, it shines with beautiful light in the evening. The people who arrive there find themselves home immediately. The inside is cozy, not perfect, so you can relax when you enter. The food is really good. And the time spent around the table is focused and meaningful. My favorite homemaker rises in the morning to be alone with her coffee and bible. Her children call her their best friend and her husband loves and respects her. It took a visit to my favorite homemakers house to be reminded of the deeper callings I have felt in my heart many times. To be a wife and mother, and to be a really good one.
I realized on my last visit that there were many times the warmth of this home and woman have ministered to me. When I needed comfort and love and acceptance and a spiritual mother, this women was there for me! I began to see my own life's purpose align with the calling of the home and realized that yes, the world needs homemakers, homes, families and the ministry of homemaking. I was looking at the calling on my life in a way that was a little backwards. That I was putting too much weight and value and worth into my success as a business owner before how my family esteemed me as the keeper of our home.
Many women will not feel called to the home the way I do. I can only say that when I was abandoned in spirit, the Lord always placed me in loving homes with graceful homemakers to care for me. In growing and acknowledging these women (three come to mind just as I write, and I know there are more) I see the joy and purpose of the home that opens itself to those also orphaned in spirit and needing the ministry of the home and family. And so my personal calling is to create space with an atmosphere of love that permeates and protects and gives life to everyone in it.
As I write The Homemaking Core, I want to explore the topics I have begun to care about and examine as I grow as a homemaker and wife. Expect personal thoughts, reflections, resources and maybe a few suggestions...